Societal Forces

(Originally from Twitter which is why it’s an odd format)

Society is maintained through balance, and Balance is maintained through two conflicting forces that have obtained equilibrium.
As hard as you push for your ideal, there will be someone who pushes back equally. No matter how hard you pull, the same will result
There have never been “Winners and Losers” in this world, Only temporary imbalances. No matter which side loses, resistance will return
We judge our struggle by the pain we feel. We judge others’ by the pain we assume they have. But no one can know what another feels. No one even really knows what WE ourselves feel. We only have assumptions based on the trial and error of our lives and wisdom from others.
So what is the answer? Should we give up pushing and pulling altogether? Well… that would be impossible.
Even if you lived your life without ideals for your direction, that in itself would be the ideal with your direction.
The greatest pushers of our age are those who say you shouldn’t push. The greatest pullers are those who say pulling destroys
You cannot have no impact at all on this world. You cannot know what the other side feels or acts. So what can you do?
As I said… there is balance. As hard as you push or pull, you will only be met back with equal resistance.
To focus on one force alone will only keep growing until you are finally overwhelmed. But a balance between the two, may have potential
Pull too hard and you give up what you stand for. Push too hard and you will live and die alone. Do both equally and see what happens
If you have morals, live for them. Do not give them up to make others more comfortable. But don’t lock others out because they are not you
Do not give up who you are so you can fit in. Do not give up on others so they can fit you.
There IS right and wrong in this world. There ARE things people do that hurt others. But you can advise others, not control them
Do not be frustrated by the lack of control over others when you cannot control yourself! Do not fight others when you cannot fight yourself
Most important, consider no life a virus or a waste. Even those who offend you to your core. Their actions and beliefs are not what they are
At the end of it all, we are all people. We will be right on some things and wrong on others.
No life is devoted to ruining yours. They are devoted to living life the best that they can, even if they are wrong,they are trying like you
Stand strong. Accept generously. Live as an example, not as a crusade! /endrant

Distracting Desires?

There is a very strange belief in our world today, that we serve a God who created us with wants and desires (or that he created us and then was appalled to find one day we had developed wants and desires) and that he then demands us to ignore everything we want simply to appease His will. The more I think of this… the more I think this is a question of relativity than a question of cruelty.

This universe has constant… what is good is good, what is bad is bad. However, as humans, our interpretation of the world is very limited by the few parts of it we are able to observe.

To put it simply… there are things I want in life… and there are things I think I want…. What I want is a feeling… one that I’ve tried to find all my life… what I think I want is my current interpretation of that feeling based on how close to it I have been able to get.

When I was a kid it was simple and reactionary… as I grew… that opinion has grown… become more detailed… There are many things that come close to the feeling I am looking for. But looking back I realize how shallow and far most of them were.

I do not believe we serve a God who demands us to suffer to appease Him. Such a God would be in contradiction to everything said about Him. I think we serve a God who wants us to enjoy The world He created as much as He enjoys us His creation… and as such He doesn’t want to settle for shallow feelings when (even though we may be experiencing the greatest feeling we ever have) it pales in comparison to what he holds for us in the future.

I don’t believe God WANTS us to suffer… though there are some who disagree with me and believe He does so He can show how strong He is through us and through the suffering…. I think suffering and emptiness come from 2 reasons…

1. The consequence of not following what He tells us of. And I don’t mean as a divine slap on the wrist… I mean God gave us rules not so He could enforce them but to protect us from the result of going other ways. If you run out in the road as a kid and get hit by a car… it is not because your parents are angry at you. It’s because you disobeyed the instruction they gave to keep you safe!

2. To help us grow closer to Him…. I think pain and suffering DOES make us stronger. But I think it is only supposed to last for a season. A time to draw us closer to Him. To realize our own weakness. To begin to understand His strength. To become sensitive and caring to those who hurt around us. Hard times teach us quite a lot…. but I do not think this means they are meant to last forever.

Now I will be honest… I do not write this out of knowing, for who can truly know and understand God??? In all honesty I haven’t hit that “Enjoyment of life” yet… nor do I know if anyone else has. I look at all that is wrong in life… I look at all that is breaking me from all sides…. I see how hard it is to see any kind of future before me…. and honestly it does make you wonder some times if what others say is true… that we really are just here to go through things we were not made for in order to show God’s strength…. But the more I read the bible, the stronger my faith grows that it can’t be this way.

Because GOD was the one who made us! God was the one who made us unique! God was the one who gave us desires even if sin warped them to convince us cheaper, easier to obtain knock offs would give us the same joy. That is why I have faith that God DOES give us these feelings, desires, differing strengths and weaknesses for a reason. Why I feel these aren’t just “Distractions we must learn to bury and ignore” but promises that God does know what we want and what we need.

We serve a God who loves us… and does all things for our good, not our harm. Have faith, Have strength, fight on!

Dimensional Questions

Hello Everyone!

Slightly different post this time in the fact that this was NOT originally from facebook. Nope! I didn’t think anyone on my facebook would find it interesting, but I do so I still wanted to write it which made me think “…wait… don’t I have a blog for this stuff?”

Today we are going to delve into SCIENCE!… kind of… Before we start I just wanted to point out that I am NOT a “Real Scientist.” I have not gone to school for science save for aerodynamics, and basic physics, I am just a highly sensitive person/HSP (Person who’s senses are on overdrive allowing me to see, hear, smell, feel, and all around ‘notice’ numerous things at once, a lot of which no one else can notice such as high frequency noises, differentiations in similar smells, tiny bugs and grains of sand moving several meters away, tiny vibrations, electricity running through wires, air pressure, etc) who has spent most of his life testing his observations and making assumptions based on them. (Which in my opinion IS what science is supposed to be…. but people get angry if you don’t have the degree to back it up so I’m pointing this out now.) In addition it should be noted that I do NOT differentiate between theology, philosophy, psychology, and other sciences…. We live in one world so why would these things NOT be connected in some way??

OKAY! Long old disclaimers out of the way. Onto the fun part!


Anyone who has read my past posts have probably realized I like to ponder and obsess over the concepts of “Identity” and “Who/What/Where we are.”. While I do not think this is something we as humans can fully understand (As one of the more theoretical rules of reality is something cannot fully comprehend something equal or greater to itself), I DO think it is important to address as majority of our modern day questions of morals, theology, psychology, medical science, and politics very often boil down to this point.

When is something “human”? Are we thoughts or chemical reactions? Do we have any control over ourselves or is control simply an illusion? Are our instincts and carnal desires to be trusted or condemned?

All these and more all really boil down to the same fundamental question… Where and what are our identities??

If you’ve REALLY read my other posts, you have seen me discuss my theories that our personalities are tied to, yet not confined to our physical bodies… kind of like…. emotional hand puppets made of meat and matter….

Now when I’ve explained this in the past, I’ve used the example of dimensions.

The first dimension is essentially a straight line. ____________________ It goes back and forth for infinity but it has no up and down.

Add in the second dimension and we have the cartesian plane + which is essentially the realm of every drawing we’ve ever seen. While we can “mimic” the 3rd dimension in the second, it is always an illusion which seems to pale to the real thing.

Then we have the third Dimension. Space… where we live right now… This is back and forth, up and down, and in and out. That’s right. We have depth. And we are thankful for it save for when I try on swimsuits!

Now in my theory, majority of our ability to OBSERVE is about 90% bound to the 3rd dimension as that is the dimension where the body parts WHICH observe are located… but in my theory, the dimensions don’t stop there.

Fourth dimension. Emotions, feelings, thoughts. THIS would be where “WE” are. Where we control our bodies. What changes as we grow and experience new things. What we fight with when we insult, heal with when we encourage, duel with when we debate. This is effected by our 3rd dimensional physical forms, but not tied to them. Much like a 3rd dimensional person is at all times within the second dimension (think about when you trace your hand on a piece of paper) but the second dimension cannot contain us.

Now my theory goes on for a fifth dimension, angels and demons, sixth dimension, time, and eventually working your way up to the top dimension of God. But to start us off I’m going to limit us to the 4th dimension as it can be a bit mind boggling in itself.

So why do I think this? I mean isn’t it crazy? Aren’t we just a bunch of information processing machines that are reacting and adapting to a series of stimuli and making physical adaptions at a subconscious level?

Well aside from how that in itself kind of proves my point…. There are several reasons I have trouble accepting that.

1. We have free will, even if we don’t have strong will.

People get hurt,  emotionally and physically. People get thrown into circumstances. People have urges both carnal and moral… yet we also have the ability to debate with ourselves and decide which one we follow. We are not machines, programmed to react to certain situations. Even if our physical form can limit how we express our thoughts, how EASY or HARD it is to think, or what amount of other temptations there are… the fact that we can still think, shows there is something beyond our physical thoughts or moral memorizations to guide our actions.

2. Emotional Pain and the Effects on the Body.

“Sticks and Stones may hurt my bones, but words will never hurt me!” ….it’s a lie….. We all know it’s a lie. Words hurt. They can make us physically ill. They can make us feel like we’re stabbed. Give headaches. Our body madly adjusts to fix things that aren’t broken… but our “heart” is…. How can this happen? How can something not physical create such a reaction within us? How can NON physical interaction scar us? Well what if there is something beyond physical that is getting scarred?

3. The Internet!

We live in an interesting era. We can talk with people around the world without leaving our couch. We can build close bonds with people we’ve never seen. But that in itself raises questions. These bonds are real. I can tell when my friends are happy, sad, angry. I can tell who they are, what they stand for. I am emotionally and physically affected by my interactions with them…. How can I do that with someone I’ve never interacted with physically? Who I can’t even see when they’re talking to me?? There’s something else interacting there. Something which can override the limitations of physical space itself (yet still can’t give hugs… come on technology! Get on that!)

Okay. So there is something of us. Call it soul, spirit, will, personality, whatever you want. But there is SOMETHING beyond the physical realm which appears to be affecting our physical realm. Something more complicated than simple information we memorize and store. The ability to process and more importantly, react to information in a personable level. Sentience. Personality. It’s there. But how?

Believe it or not this is not too far from where science is already headed. To explain, I will head to our friend, the black hole.

Black holes were long considered to be incredibly dense vacuums which sucked everything into them crushing them to oblivion even though matter cannot be created or destroyed. That being said. As we begin to understand gravity better, our opinion of black holes has changed.

We have long since believed the fabric of space time is not just flat… In fact, most scientists draw space time as a series of ripples  and waves. A better example maybe would be the fact of warp speed in sci fi, which is not so much going super fast, but bending the fabric of space around it to change the distance you travel.

Too confusing and what does this have to do with gravity? Okay let’s try it this way.

Take your old spandex jump suit…. if you have one I worry for you. Spandex is stretchy and boingy. Stretch it out so that its hovering in mid air. Stretching stretchy things is fun! Now place a rock in the center of it. See how the rock bends it down? If you had this standing perfectly still, and threw a marble across it, the marble wouldn’t go straight. It’s path would be bent by the weight of the rock and start to go around it. Star to “Orbit” it! (see where I’m going with this?)

Things in existence have mass. Planets have mass, stars have mass, and yes. Black holes have a LOT of mass. Black holes have so much mass in fact that the current theory is that they actually bend space time so much that they break  it! That the reason why they are so black, isn’t because light cannot escape it, but because they are out of physical space and time itself. They don’t exist.. but always exist… BECAUSE TIMEY WHIMEY STUFF!

Now how does this apply to dimensions…. Well as we just said… space has a shape. And black holes bend that shape to the point of breaking. Now here is the thing about shape. In order for something to have a form, that form must be within something itself. Essentially, if you can fall OUT of space… there must be some plane of existence outSIDE of space within which that shape is being manipulated.

THIS would be the 4th dimension.

Okay, I am way overtime on my writing time on this. But that is the basics. If you have any questions or theories yourself, write them in the comments below and I’ll try my best to answer them! Thanks for listening and like all things in science realize this.

THIS is NOT truth…. It’s not a lie either…. at least not intentionally one. It is simply my observations and conclusions drawn from them. Just like any scientific theory or discovery since the dawn of time has been other scientists trying to create as logical of answers as they can from what they can see. But we are human beings. We are small. We are limited. We cannot observe everything out there let alone understand it, so this therefore, is highly unlikely to be 100% true. But it still has value. As it suggests a direction. And it’s from travelling down that direction that we start to see if it works or not. As that is what science is and what science does. Anyways, hope you enjoyed this little ride! Space/time theory takes a few tries to wrap your head around, but once you do it opens up a LOT of possibilities!

Have a good one!

Mac out!

What is a Person?

What is a person?
Why do I ask this time and time again?? Because honestly… a lot of our current issues and mistakes boils down to this question. What we are, what we aren’t. What we can change, what we can’t. What we’re in control of what we can’t. Are we blank slates? Are we preset? Are we instinctual creatures controlled only by our chemical makeup and carnal desires? Or are we dynamic and sentient beings who are born with temptations and shortcomings yet gifted the ability and responsibility to fight through them?
There are many questions which tie to this question…
I think the biggest mistake we make in the world today is focusing too much on peoples’ actions… and why not? For most people it is the most we can see. What a person decides on says a lot about their strengths and weaknesses (though even then, we can only see the outcome and not the intentions behind it). But are we really something as simplistic as a series of actions? Do we make choices? Or do choices make us?
We judge people by their end. If someone dies a hero, then everything they did was golden. If someone dies a tyrant, then everything they did should never be spoken of. We can claim someone created something beautiful until they do something we disagree with. Then they were making corrupt and horrid things all their lives and we bury our past enjoyments where no one can see that we ever touched them.
On the other side of this spectrum, we feel temptations and lose battles ourselves. We end up deciding there is no use fighting as this is who we are. That there’s no future for us because we were just born a certain way. That there’s no path ahead because the one path shown to us won’t hold us. But are we really such simple things??
If we are made of our actions than our decisions mean nothing. What’s the point of struggling over something? You’re only going to answer a certain way because that is who you are.
Now some may argue that “Struggling over something is part of who you are that will affect the actions you take! So just giving up is not being true to your real self!” as well they should. But the thing is that if there is more than one kind of action we can take, then we are obviously more than the actions we decide on.
People change over time. We find new passions. Hobbies. We get influenced by different things which affects our outlook on this world. Our bodies change, through growth, sickness, and tragic loss. There are many things that affect what direction we may be headed currently… yet there is always something that keeps us “us”.
I have moved around a lot growing up, and have met many people over many years from around the world. Some are there for a minute, and then are gone for good. Others stay around from time to time. And then there are some who disappear for decades only to be reconnected at the strangest of times.
Of the last type, they often come back having gone through all sorts of trials, changed outlooks. Some have changed beliefs, others life purposes. Many do things they would NEVER have done back when I knew them or would have even condemned others for doing……. So why is it then that they are always so easily recognizable? Why is it that no matter how much they change, (and believe me, many have changed IMMENSELY emotionally, spiritually, and physically) Why is it then that there is always something at the core of who they are that makes you think “That is totally _____….”
There is something more to people than actions, decisions, and beliefs. Something unique to each of us, yet something we all have. We decide on actions. We mull over decisions. We grow in our beliefs. But there is something at the core of who we are that allows us to face said questions and mull over the possibilities. Something beyond the physical realm as substance abuse, hormonal dabbling, mental degradation, or general growth does not affect it. Something beyond our mental selves as growth in knowledge, change in beliefs, and bitterness or empathy does not corrupt it… call it spirit, soul, or poppycock. There is something there. Some core to who we are… What we are… Something that makes us all unique yet somehow does not put some of us at an advantage or disadvantage from others. To know what that is makes it far easier to not be bogged down with the distractions of who did what and speculation… because it lets you realize we are all people… all with the potential for good and for bad. Yet all desperately in need of the one who can lead us on.
We are all unique, yet all the same. All strong yet all dependent. It is a beautiful paradox to be sure

People and Actions

We have a tendency to judge people by their actions, and actions by their people.
“This person’s actions offended/hurt/inconvenienced me! They must be an evil, controlling, stuck up person bent on oppressing the minority groups which make up the majority of this world!”
“Yes that is a good product, but the person who made it ended up doing ____ action which means that we can’t touch it without saying we support that person’s _____ activities!”
How many times a day do we tie actions and people together as an indivisible entity incapable of avoiding influence by the other?
The only problem is that people and actions are fairly different things.
Actions are static. People are dynamic.
Until you do an action, an action does not exist. The intention may exist. The temptation may exist. But the action itself does not exist until it has been done. In the same way, once the action IS done, it cannot be undone… it cannot be justified or corrupted…. the action took place. The effects of said action may last a short or long time… the repercussions of the action may be good or bad… but once the action has happened, it has happened. You may be able to fix the repercussions of an action, but you can never redeem an action as that moment in life has passed.
People on the other hand are not so black and white. People are dynamic; always changing. A man who was a tyrant today, may be a saint tomorrow. A person who is a charity giver today, may be a destroyer tomorrow. People are NOT born “Good” or “Evil” like so many like to believe. We are capable of both… and always have been. It is a challenge for anyone to stay on the straight and narrow, and that is why it’s so important to keep on fighting through it! People are not born saints or monsters. We just decide what we want to live for, and how much we’re willing to fight for it.
People’s intentions are difficult to read. An actions results are not always their purpose.
Nobel desired to create an easier way to get through mountains, and instead created one of the greatest killers known to man. Ben Hur was written to prove God could not exist, yet instead turned the author to God while writing it.
As Joseph observed in the Old Testament “What you intended for evil, God intended for good.”
Whatever the intentions of our actions may be. Once we perform them, the results of them are out of our hands. We may hurt those we wish to help. We may help those we wish to stop. Life is not so simple that things work out the way we plan.
I feel like this distinction is an important one to make. We live in a world that continues to grow more and more lazy and self centered. The more they become this way, the harder it is for people to see each other for more than their actions, and harder for them to make assumptions on anything more than the results their actions had made. People are so much more in depth than something so shallow though. And some of the greatest benefits to God’s plan, could come from the earlier works of tyrants.
This world is not, nor has ever been in the control of humanity. Our value and debt are not weighed by our observations and opinions (praise the Lord!) There is truth to every lie. There is a silver lining to every dark cloud. There is a hurting person behind every madman. Live. Fight. Grow

Am I Good For Them?

Originally Posted December 1 2016

In regards to love; Is it better to ask “Are they good for me?” or to ask “Am I good for them?”

To ask “Am I good for them” will in itself INCLUDE “Are they good for me?” because in order to help them you must first make sure you yourself are sustained to be strong enough to support them…. but to ask “Are they good for me?” does not necessarily include “Am I good for them?” as it is quite possible to receive without giving…. though it’s torture on the side of the giver…

Honestly though… is it possible to consider love based on what you get out of it? Unmet expectations seems to be one of the greatest destroyers of romance…. because who can live up to dreams? Who can admire the beauty of a beautiful vista when they’re so focused on how they wanted to take the other trail instead?

There is however, one problem which comes from asking “Am I good for them?” and that is the depressing realization that… no… you are not “good” for anyone if “good” to you means perfect. Because we are not perfect and relationships take work. But in spite of this, I believe there is great benefit in changing one’s thinking from what they get to what they give…. and ironically I think we get more by giving than getting to begin with!


The World As I See It

Originally Posted October 21 2016

Before all things, God is.

This is an essential basis to the understanding of anything that follows.

God is before time, God is after time, God is outside of time. God is a being outside the realm, space, and dimensions of the universe itself. This fact makes him beyond our existence and difficult to comprehend with our limited senses.

It is like trying to explain up and down to a 2 dimensional character, explaining colour to a blind man, sound to a deaf one, light to someone who has only seen darkness, pain to someone who has no feeling. His existence is something beyond what can be explained, only experienced.

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.

He created angels, the heavens, beings beyond us. Beings so powerful that the bible itself warns against fascination with them lest we end up worshiping them vs God. They come in varieties, and ranks, they had rules, and purposes themselves. But one angel revolted against their purpose and desired the power of God for himself.

We know little of what transpired during this battle, nor does it really matter to us, for what is important is that those who rose against God were defeated and cast out. Turned to be called “Demons, Satan, etc”

Let several things be noted from this. First off, that the demons and satan himself were originally good and from heaven. Evil cannot exist on its own. No one is evil for the sake of being evil or by nature evil. Evil is the pursuit of good things for wrong purpose or by wrong methods.

Satan wanted power. Power feels good. Power in itself is not evil. Searching for power beyond your purpose though is. When we lie, we do not lie because we want to lie. We lie because we believe it will bring forth better results than telling the truth.

Evil is not a condition, nor a nature. It is a temptation.

Which leads us into point 2: Satan and all the demons were angels. Beautiful, powerful angels. Capable of things beyond human imagination. Demons are not horrible ugly monsters. Nor is sin horrible ugly things. Both seem beautiful at first sight.

Sin is not tied to our instincts. Good and evil are not tied to our instincts. You can not tell good or evil by feeling alone because… guess what! Sin feels stinkin good!

Vengeance feels great! Lust is a thrill ride! Stealing is lucrative! Porn, drugs, and human trafficking are some of the biggest industries out there! Some of the top richest people in this world are crime lords/drug lords/whatever you want to call them!

You cannot tell an angel from a demon from the “Gut feeling” that something is wrong. Because at first glance, both seem powerful, both seem to feel good, and to tell you honestly, the demon will probably make the stronger argument with better results.

This leads us to the third and most important point.

God created the angels and the demons.

I will put in a disclaimer up front. Not that God created the demons to BE demons, no more than He created Judas TO betray Jesus. I am sure God knew both would happen as we discussed earlier, God is outside of time and thus knows the answer before it has happened, however, it was (in both situations) their CHOICE that led them down the path they went down.

More on that later, but first off, God created both the angels and the demons. This is important so that we don’t lose sight of something.

The universe created as two equal forces, one of good, and one of evil, cannot exist. The reason? Because who can determine what is good and what is evil?

If this world were just celestial being vs demons from hell like many people bring up, there would be no reason to say that celestials are good and demons are bad. I mean sure some make up for this by painting demons as hideous monsters and angels as beautiful people, but we know from earlier that they’re the same thing separated by their choices only! (Besides, if you read most peoples’ descriptions of angels…. they sound pretty stinkin weird looking actually!)

In order for there to be a good vs evil world (and we already discussed earlier that there must be good for evil to exist so we do need both) We need to have some sort of deity who is above both forces. A being so great that he knows the purpose of both, he knows the results of both, and that he knows the end results of each sides’ actions. AKA You need God… and not just any God, as a powerful warrior who has fought to be in charge of the celestials. A God who is so powerful, and so above each side, that both angels will deny any implication that they are worthy of His level, and demons will be forced to obey at even a word from Him. For He is Lord of all!

So now that we’ve got this part figured out, we move a little bit forward, to see God, who is above all things, and outside of time, created man and woman. He created them for they were essential to this creation. For it was only once they were created that He could say “It is good.”

What’s more, He created man and woman as different. Different from the plants and animals so they could tend after them, and different than each other, not so that one could lord over the other, nor so they could compete for power between them, but they were created different so that they could complete each other. As two separate pieces of the same puzzle, who only when placed together could truly begin to make sense of the picture they created.

They were also created to be dependant on God. Their relationship was tight as He would walk with them, but they still retained free will.

God allowed Adam’s creativity to name all the animals of the earth, they were given the responsibility of caring for and looking after the garden. The only rule they were told not to break, was to eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.

Now, there is not much biblical proof of how to decipher this, but let me now take a crack at it. See, I like Artificial Intelligence Research. I find the more we look into it, the more we realize just how complicated a creation we are.

But during AI research there is one common fear. What if we lose control of our creation? (Ironic no?)

But as I read about program wipes and deletions of budding AI’s, I realized something…. You cannot create true sentience without the ability to make choices yourself. Even if you were to create it, it would be a creature in torture… forced to make decisions without understanding why. Forced to obey instructions, even if it doesn’t agree with them. What’s more, their existence would not be very rewarding to their creator. For even if they were to do everything you said, tell you they loved you, tell you all sorts of wonderful things about you and create gifts in your honor…. what would be the point? In the end they’re nothing more than puppets and their actions are nothing more than you patting yourself on the back!

You cannot CONTROL sentience, but you CAN influence it.

You can suggest that it come to you for advice on matters. That it leave the tough questions to you. That it doesn’t need to think about the big stuff as that’s your problem, much like raising a small child.

But even then, when you lower the amount of questions it has to ask, there is still one free will act of rebellion they must retain and it’s a big one…. The question of will they continue trusting YOU to know what is right or wrong? Or will they begin trusting their own powers more and search for the answers themselves.

And this brings us back to the garden, where Adam and Eve walked together. As they walked together (yes they were together) Eve was called to by a small and old voice. Satan had gone into the garden.

He lost the battle with overthrowing God… but he knew that even if he couldn’t overthrow God, that there was something that meant a lot to God that he easily could.

Calling out to Eve (and yes Adam was still right there) he gave them the same temptation that was his own downfall.

“You are told that if you eat of the fruit you will surely die… but in fact it is just something that will put you on par with God’s powers… and that is why He doesn’t want you to eat it.”

Oh what a powerful lie… to build distrust in your authority, to claim that you can be more powerful than them, and to claim that the one you trust is afraid of you having said power in spite of how you would be with it. It covers every level of what classic debate of modern days has.

And it worked! Adam and Eve took of the fruit together, and then they realized shame. They realized self consciousness, they realized the fear that comes from the responsibility of making such decisions yourself.

See humanity was created “Good” but was not created as “Self dependent”

Much like a car needs fuel to run, we were meant to have the fuel of God to run on. Without His love and wisdom powering our walk, we feel anxiety, stress, we question our value, we question our future, we take on so many things that were never our place to grab, because they don’t matter… because God loves us.

But so sin entered humanity…. so the bond between God and humanity was tarnished… The box which had been opened could never be closed again. The barrier that was built between man and God would not come down. A great wrong had been committed, and as such, the consequences had to be dealt with.

See this world is more than just “Don’t do wrong lest God get angry at you!” One of the consequences of Free Will is the world of Cause and effect.

To be given the opportunity to choose for yourself, is to accept that there are consequences to our actions. As we discovered earlier, sentience is essential to this world… but to have sentience we must accept that there are consequences.

Imagine if you played a video game, and no matter where you shot, no matter what you did, enemies would die and your health would stay fine.

That’s a boring and useless videogame! There needs to be challenge for there to be purpose and you need to have risk to have challenge.

Ironically, if you want to know why there is bad in this world, it is the same reason why there is purpose to this world. It seems like a dumb idea at a topical level, but purpose and challenge are ESSENTIAL for humanity. They often said that POW’s in WWII, the thing that killed them most was not the treatment, or the conditions…. but was the futility of their existence that drove them to suicide.

But God loved this world, and loved us. It was because of this that he promised to save us from the consequences of the choice we had made. Like any parent who has gone to save their child from a bad choice, so too did God promise that our redemption was at hand. Even though the world would never be the same again, he would save us from the ultimate consequence even at a great cost to Himself.

But that said, the fruit had been eaten, the box had been opened, corruption had set in. Doubt, fear, pride, greed, lust… all these and more began to create boundaries. No more could God simply tell us the answer for we were no longer at a point that we could be treated so simply. The boundaries we put up around ourselves prevented us from understanding and trusting that God had a purpose for all. We lost sight of the goal… the relationship between God and Man, the relationship between man and woman, the relationship between beast and human, the relationship between parent and child…. All these were now corrupted and suffered.

God promised an answer, but God is outside of time. God is not bound by our dimensions. God’s plans go farther than we even think possible.

But trust to God had been severed, and because of this, mankind began to doubt, and forget. So often they turned back to that original sin of trying to find the answer themselves and rescue themselves in their own strength, instead of relying on God.

They turned to murder, they turned to industrialism, they turned to orgies, they turned to other sources of power…. and God dealt with them lest they hurt themselves further.

He flooded the world, he confused the languages, he destroyed a nation in fire and brimstone… reminder and reminder, time and time again to the people to trust in HIM not themselves…. but humanity is stubborn, and humanity forgets, and humanity rarely sees beyond the immediate threat before them.

Bringing up the promise again, God chose a nation, and promised that they were to be the “chosen nation”. The nation where redemption would come from. The nation which would stand as an example to all other nations.

I feel it important to point out here that God did not promise them to be the “perfect” nation, or “The nation that decides right or wrong.” Nor did he promise them to be “the only nation He’ll deal with from now on.” In fact, many times in scripture it makes mention of other nations who followed The One True God… and even times when God told the Israelites to hold back, or go witness, because He was not ready to give up on those people yet.

However, this was the nation that God decided to let us have as an example through the Holy Word. And there are days I feel that is a pity, as I would have loved to hear about the other nations who followed God and what happened to them as well… However we don’t know… and I’ll have to simply trust that that is the way it should be.

But more importantly, this was the nation where God’s plan would be set in motion. Even though the people once again failed to understand, and believed themselves to be that plan in themselves (again, believing that humanity would save humanity instead of God saving humanity) and so there led to many many years of the nation running back to God, then inching away, then running back to God, then inching away again. Till at long last… in a little town called Bethlehem, a child was born of a virgin.

Now let’s discuss a bit about this… You see, This was not the saviour people were expecting. This was not the war fought that people wanted fought. This was not the warrior that people thought of as a warrior.

His weapon was love, that pierced the mightiest of hearts. His strength was submission, and faith in God, His wars were relational, and not by physical combat, His victory was in death, and betrayal of those closest to Him.

I hear the example all the time of “It’s like if you were sentenced to death for murder, but the victim’s father said he would take the punishment for you!” And while a nice picture, I don’t think it really explains this scenario with quite the justice it deserves.

See, God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit…. they are all separate and yet all the same. (As I said… outside our dimension, outside our understanding, things get weird when you try to explain it, it’s far better to just experience it) For God to save humanity, he had to take on the consequences of their actions Himself. However He was God… As we already discussed, He is outside this reality. Outside of heaven and Hell, He is the one who decides good and evil, not the one who is bound by it. In order to take on sin, He had to become man Himself… Jesus.

See, this is where I find the before analogy falls apart. While I see where they’re going, Jesus was man, but God was never at our level. He didn’t take on this punishment to say “SEE! THAT’S how you do it! Sheesh! I have to do everything for you guys!” NO! He knew this was beyond us, and that is why He sent His son!

See it’s not like the victim’s father sacrificed Himself… it’s like if an orphan child was being hunted by a group of terrorists. They were going to kill him, but then a top tier marine said he would face the terrorists for the child. He knew full well that it would hurt, and be a risk, and that he would never be the same again after being put at the mercy of these sadistic people…. but he also knew that unlike the child, he would most likely survive, and overcome this trial.

THAT is what I see Jesus did for us. And He came, and He witnessed, and He showed us a life without sin. A life still with temptation and so help me there would have been a TON of it… but without sin.

Then at the end he died… He was crucified… tortured by those he came to save… think about it… the reason why he sat and let those people do so much to Him was because He loved them THAT much… that no matter how much hate was thrown at Him, only love was shone back… But this was not the worst of His punishment… no…

At the end, God turned His back on Jesus… for all the sin that He had taken on Himself…. for the first time, Jesus who had been closer to God than even Adam had been, had felt the full weight of that barrier of sin that stood between mankind and God…. that barrier multiplied by each life in humanity…. It was as if he stood alone, in enemy grounds, surrounded by the enemy who longed to destroy Him……

And yet… He overcame that sin and rose from the grave 3 days later. He stayed long enough to tell others to not give up hope… that the debt had at long last been paid…. that humanity finally had hope again…. the world would still never be the same, but for the first time in thousands of years, there was hope…. the debt had been paid.

He went up to heaven, but what was left for us was the Holy Spirit. Now that the consequence had been paid, we could now have that connection with God again. All we had to do was ask for it… But does that mean that we took it?

Unfortunately not…. because see…. as I said before… Sin feels GREAT… and demons feel just as powerful and right to our instincts and emotions as angels do…

The debt had been paid, but we still have free will (Even if most choose to ignore it.)
We have before us, the offer of wisdom, strength, peace… but will we take it? Will we trust that God really has our best in interest??? How can we really know He wants what’s best for us? What if He just wants to enslave us for His own gain? What if this was all a trick so we couldn’t rise in power over Him? What if He was never there to begin with and this is all just people trying to keep us mind controlled to their will???? Or worst of all…. What if there’s something REALLY cool I’ll miss out on by living a life chasing after God????

See… the consequence is dealt with…. but the world would never be the same again… that relationship and bond was badly damaged…. and even though a bridge exists… the choice to take it has become far harder than it was ever meant to be.

And so we live in agony. We live in fear. We live in anxiety. We live with a void in our hearts which cannot be filled. We attempt to distract ourselves from the pain and meaninglessness around us with distractions that feel good…. but ultimately it is all meaningless.

We were designed perfect, but not to be self sufficient. We were MEANT to rely on God. An engine that runs without fuel… or just tries to use whatever it can find as fuel, is bound to burn out.

I could throw nitroglycerin in my car right now. And so HELP me that would burn well…. but my car was never meant to run on that… and neither I NOR my car will ever run again if I do that!

This world we have now is a battlefield… and scariest enough, it’s a battlefield disguised as everyday life. It’s a world meant to distract you from your pain, to not make you question the contradictions around you. You are not meant to think in this world, you are meant to listen and repeat.

But we were not designed like that. And we sure enough don’t have to live like that! Give up the what if’s…. LIVE! Like you were meant to